- The Heavy Man
- On Monday, May 31, 2010, I embarked on a mission to lose weight and to get into the best shape of my life for my wedding. For a long time that mission was a success until life started getting stressful and food became a way to cope with that stress. To make a long story short, the mission fell short before my wedding day was here. And to make things even worse, I stopped eating healthy, exercising, and blogging for over two years. I now have a very beautiful wife and baby boy but my health is still crap. So to turn things around, I am brining back "The Heavy Man" and the "Mission to Healthy."
Monday, October 1, 2012
Day #20 - An Addiction, Hard To Overcome
Hello.... My name is Chris aka "The Heavy Man" and I am addicted to food.
I have been on this earth for 29 years and have had this addiction since high school. I have never smoked a cigarette, I have never tried a single drug, and my drinking years have long disappeared. The only thing that has kept me from being in shape and healthy, on a consistent basis, has been my addiction to food. And I have trouble most of the time trying to get past it.
I feel that it is a never ending curse.... having to monitor what I eat on a day to day basis. I look at all the people that come in and out of my gym and 90% of them are in ridiculous shape. And all I can think of is how that outcome is so far away for me. So far.... that I have been chasing it for years. And just when I think I have cracked the code, I get swamped with work or the stresses of trying to survive life just seem to pull me down. And that roller coaster of going up in weight and then back down in weight and back up again, takes a toll on me. Not only physically but mentally too! I just want to blink my eyes and have all of the weight that has been latching to me for the last few years to disappear.
Unfortunately, things like this do not happen, at least not over night. In the past I wanted to get rid of my weight problems because I wanted to look like a model or someone that could be in a clothing store ad. My fantasy of losing weight slowly turned into not wanting people to make fun of me or look at me differently because I was overweight. And now all I can think about is being around to watch my son grow-up. It gets me emotional every time I think about it.
And with all of this going on in my head, wanting to lose the extra weight for good, it just seems to be getting harder and harder to stay on track. I think it is because I am exhausted from being on this up and down roller coaster for so long. But no matter what, I know I can not give up. No matter how many times I stumble.... I have to get back up! I have worked to hard, starting a family and trying to survive, that I can not afford to go backwards!
I want to thank everyone from the bottom of my heart for all of your support! I know it has been a rocky start, bringing "The Heavy Mans Diary" back. But I feel that this is the only way to help motivate me to lose the weight for good!
Good Night Everyone.... Tomorrow Starts a New Day!!
- The Heavy Man