Day #10 - Letting It Out

I have never been one for expressing my emotions. I am a very personable and fun loving person but when it comes down to sharing my true feelings I am as quiet as they come. I believe that everyone has their own problems. So, why would I burden anyone with my problems.

I was driving to the gym with my fiancee just about 2 hours ago and she said something very interesting to me. She told me she can understand what is going on in my head more through reading my blog then she can some times by just talking to me. She then went onto to tell me that she likes knowing what I am thinking and how I am feeling because it gives her a sense of what I am going through when I am attempting to get in shape. I think the conversation I had with her brings up a great point. I have always had trouble sharing my thoughts with anyone. Since I have started this blog, I have been able to express what I am feeling on the inside a lot easier then I would be able to just talking directly to someone. I think that was another problem that I had when trying to lose weight in the past. I would try to take on losing weight by myself and would get angry when I kept on failing. Here is the problem with that, I did not tell anyone what I was feeling, I would just give up. This is yet another reason why building a support system is very important when trying to accomplish a goal such as this. You constantly need reminders on how well your are doing and to keep on going. Nothing is better then getting a compliment from someone else. I know it keeps me motivated.

While at the gym, I felt a little out of place in the weights section. I haven't lifted a weight in a long time and I knew that I was in for a rough night attempting to execute my first upper body workout since...... crap I don't remember. Anyway, everyone there was in their young 20's and they were lifting what I can only describe as a ton of weight. I thought to myself I will get there eventually but until then let's take it nice and easy. I am going to take this one step at a time. When I need motivation during an exercise session, I always vision what I will look and feel like when I reach my goal. It makes me want to try harder.

With that being said, let's get to the details of the day:

Meals of the day (The Heavy Man = 42)
(For anyone new to the blog, I am currently trying out Weight Watchers. So far, so good with the results.)

Breakfast - 3 egg whites on whole wheat toast with a cup of fresh mixed fruit = Total Points 7
Lunch - Footlong chicken teriyaki sub on whole wheat bread with 2 slices of american cheese, a bag of baked potato chips, and a bag of apple slices (Subway) = Total Points 22
Dinner - 2 cups of chicken with broccoli and 1 cup of steamed brown rice = Total Points 10
Snack - 1 cup of mixed fruit (during the day) & 1 medium apple after dinner = Total Points 3

Total Points Eaten Today = 42

Exercise

Today I executed my first weight lifting session in about 6 months and man am I tired. The session went as follows:

Upper Body:

- Regular Bench Press on a resistance machine: Set #1 - 18 reps at 20lbs, Set #2 - 15 reps at 25lbs, Set #3 - 12 reps at 30lbs, Set #4 - 10 reps at 30lbs
(1 minute rest in between sets and exercise)
- Chest Flyes on a cable machine: 4 Sets x 15 reps at 10lbs
(1 minute rest in between sets and exercise)

- Biceps: Dumbbell Hammers - 3 stes x 15 reps at 10lbs, Wide Grip Cable Curls - 3 sets x 15 reps at 10lbs, and Individual Dumbbell Curls - 3 sets x 15 reps at 5lbs

Tomorrow will be a cardio and core workout day. I will post the results tomorrow.

Day #10 Weigh-In - 291.4

(The reason the photo is off center is because I need to shoot at an angle in order for the flash to not appear over the numbers. Like it was when on Day #1)

Day #10 Weigh-In

Day #10 Front Shot