The Heavy Man's Diary: Day #50 - My Own Worst Critic

WOW...... I can't believe it is Day #50 already. It really feels like I started my mission just yesterday. I know I mention it all the time but I really could not have gotten this far if it wasn't for a very supportive family as well as a very supportive group of people like all of you. If I was left to do this all by myself, it would of ended up like every other time in the past. Brief, disappointing, and gaining more weight. In a lot of ways, I am definitely my own worst critic.

It is a great feeling when you hear from other people, "It looks like you lost weight"or if they throw a comment at you like, "You are looking great." That by itself can be an amazing confidence booster. Another form of motivation can come when you see your weight slowly decreasing as you step up on the scale. And of course it is always a good sign when your clothes start to fit you better. However, a very big part of how successful you can become with losing weight and getting healthier just so happens to be mental. What I mean by this is that you have to mentally buy into the fact that you are changing for the better. Everything that I mentioned before shows that I am doing things right to lose weight, but if I don't visually like what I see or if I have trouble visualizing what I can achieve then it will be a lot harder getting to my goal. Now, I am not saying that if I can't see it happening, it won't happen. I am just trying to say that in order to make the process easier, you have to believe in what you are doing on top of what is physically happening.

I have for, a long time, disliked the way I looked. I am over weight, I always look like I am sweating, and I am really out of shape. However, I mentioned briefly back on Day #23, since I have started this mission, I have learned to look at myself in a new light. I have a new found respect for myself. What has happened in the past is done. I had let myself get to the point where the only way I could possibly go was up. While I was shaving tonight, I was looking at myself in the mirror and I was liking what I was seeing. I am not the best looking guy in the world but I am definitely more better looking then I was 50 days ago. I have come a long way to be able to say that about myself. I may be my own worst critic, but I have been learning to look at myself in a different light and I can really visualize myself getting to my goal. Not only physically but mentally as well.

With that being said, let's get to the details of the day:

Meals of the Day (The Heavy Man = 40 Points)
(I am currently following the Weight Watchers Points System)

Breakfast - 2 Kellogg's Eggo Waffles nutri-grain low fat - whole wheat, with a cup of Dannon Light'n Fit Vanilla Yogurt, and a serving of fresh strawberries = Points 4
Snacks During the Course of the Day - 4 rice cakes and 1 Weight Watchers chocolate chip cookie = Points 5
Early Afternoon - 3 small pieces of Smith Field Teriyaki Pork Tenderloins, with a slice of melted fat free american cheese on top, and a large fresh apple = Points 12
Late Afternoon - 1 piece of grilled chicken with a slice of melted fat free american cheese and an apple = Points 6
Dinner - 1 serving of home made Chicken Pot Pie (Weight Watchers Recipe) = Points 5
Dessert - 1 Weight Watchers Ice Cream Cone = Points 2

Total Points Eaten Today = 34 Points (6 points under my daily limit) I was so busy today that I never even realized that I ended up 6 points under my daily limit until now. The funny thing is that I am satisfied and not hungry at all.

Exercise

Today I ran on the elliptical for 40 mins and I did a core body workout that consisted of: Dumbbell Side Crunches (2 sets x 20lbs for each side), Medicine Ball Sit Ups (2 sets x 20 reps with a 4lb ball), and Lying Leg Lifts (2 sets x 15 reps). Tomorrow I will be working out my Chest and Biceps.

Day #50 - Weigh-In = 272.4 lbs